29/10/2002
Fun fact - listening to Gastr Del Sol's 'Quietly Approaching' at the moment.

I've been meaning to update my blog with details of my little adventure at the Home Office but I'm much too stressed and depressed at the moment (see two-word paragraph below) to recount the whole thing again. I'll tell you this much - went last Monday, found out that people have been queuing up since the night before, decided to do the same and put up for the night in Croydon, searched all over for a place to stay, eventually turned up at the local YMCA, all wet and soaking from the hammering rain, asked for directions to the nearest bed and breakfast, getting asked in return if I was homeless, promptly denied, gave up, went home, had to leave home again at 3 am, took the night bus to Croydon, started queuing up at 4:30 am, got in at 8:30 am and finally got everything done at 11:30 am. Six hours of sleep within forty eight hours. Anyway, that's over and done with. I got my visa extended until next April. It's a visitors visa though which, by right, means I'm gonna be able to do fuck all over the next few months. But who cares?

KAWS exhibition was kinda cool. There wasn't a lot of stuff on display but there were some nice original prints of his work. Was looking forward to seeing the KAWS companion figure (the one shaped like Mickey Mouse) but it wasn't there. Uber-cool fashionistas would've ogled at the limited edition Kubrick figures but unattractive, dull-coloured plastic figurines whose only novelty value comes from having been associated with an artist/designer/musician/Nigo just don't do it for me. Umm, I did get a KAWS T-shirt and a poster.

Sisters suck.

I know everyone's going on about how Donnie Darko is such a great film. It was good yeah, but I didn't really feel the supposed greatness of it. I was expecting the Mulholland Drive level of greatness but I suppose that's asking for too much. After the movie, visit the accompanying website here. Absolutely brilliant Flash-y stuff. I say 'accompanying' because it's not merely a site about the movie. It's an online game with loads of extra information and facts that don't appear in the film. Trailers for Bowling For Columbine and Morvern Callar had my anticipation all worked up for a slew of good films within the next few weeks. And the Raindance Film Festival. And the Regus London Film Festival. And the soundtrack for Morvern Callar is on Warp Records. New Sigur Ros is out. Possibly Xen on Thursday. Be still my heart.

More films. Tower Records has some real good videos on bargain prices at the moment. Picked up The Big Lebowski, Carlito's Way, Reservoir Dogs (seen it loads of times, worth keeping) and Buffalo 66. Yummy. Bought X but couldn't bear listening to Japanese schoolgirls who double as temple guardians speaking in girly, high-pitched American English. Like, oh my God, I am so going to return it to HMV.

20/10/2002
DJ Shadow, Brixton Academy, 19.10.2002
DJ Shadow on Friday night was mind-blowing. I went to Brixton Academy feeling all excited and jumpy and I had every reason to be so. Though I was a bit gutted cos I missed the first two supporting acts, Beans of Antipop Consortium and Fingathing. When the eight of us finally got in, we were already halfway through the Soulwax DJ set. Nevertheless it was enough to pump up my adrenaline and set the vibes for the rest of the night. A breather after the end of Soulwax's set allowed the setting up of Shadow's equipment and at midnight, Shadow emerged onstage, holding a larger-than-life replica of a record above his head to a reception of frenzied applause.

My head's still buzzing from last night so I can't really be bothered with all the details of the entire show but I can tell you the highlights. First and foremost the visuals were absolutely stunning. The best part was being able to see all those videos that Shadow sampled from for songs like 'Napalm Brain/Scatter Brain' ("Well hello there lil' buddy!"), 'Mashin' On The Motorway' ("Captain Dada") and especially the video clip that Fatboy Slim sampled for 'Gangsta Trippin' ("You gotta kick that gangsta shit!"). The highlight of the night was when Shadow came back for an encore and did that thing where his MPC was synchronized with video projections of drumming lessons conducted by cheesy 80's hair rock drummers. The show was capped off with the compulsory 'Midnight In A Perfect World' and finally finishing with 'High Noon'.

All in all it was probably one of the best live shows that I'll ever see in my entire life. Headache from throbbing bass and excessive head-bobbing notwithstanding.

Pics from the show

18/10/2002
"23 year old male wears heart on sleeve"

I haven't stepped out of my flat for the past two days. Time was wasted sitting alone, talking aloud, mulling over whether or not to return home for good. All while having John Cage's In A Landscape on repeat. Frankly, home seems like the better place to be at the moment but I don't really want to assume anything. I came to London thinking I was gonna have a blast but it turned out to be nothing more than a faint sputter so I don't wanna make the same mistake. Don't get me wrong, it's not as if I was looking to party every night or something. My time in London just hasn't been ... emotionally gratifying. Granted, I met loads of cool dudes and I'm glad I did but it just isn't enough. The trouble is I don't even know what's missing so I don't know what to look for, let alone where to start.

Nevertheless, what used to be a matter of choice is slowly becoming a matter of inevitability. And nothing's gonna stop this transformation of events unless something miraculous transpires. Having said that, I do hope it'll happen, fingers - and toes - crossed.

14/10/2002
Note to self: avoid Oxford Street on rainy Sunday afternoons. Not because of the crazy amount of people gathered there every weekend. Neither because of the wet ground soaking my jeans right up my calves. But because of the danger of breaking my neck as a result of non-stop left-to-right head-swerving in order to avoid the barrage of umbrellas. I'm almost six feet tall which makes me extremely vulnerable to getting poked in the eye by the edge of someone's brolly. It doesn't help to be polite either when they raise their umbrellas because I risk getting gashed in the forehead instead (fun fact: this has happened before).

Anyway, picked up the Silver Apples reissue for only £6.99, first-hand, in HMV of all places. Some serious 60's psychedelic rock bizzness going on there. Which only serves to further fuel my transformation from hip-hop homie to full-on rock dude.

Aside from that and visa woes (which is a pretty major headache at the moment) , life's been pretty dull. Had a really good Italian lunch in Chalk Farm on Friday with Jo and Yanni which included fantastic pizza, scrumptious calamari rings and excellent lemon sorbet. However Red Dragon later on wasn't exactly entertaining. It'll be good for everyone if this is the last Hannibal Lecter movie. Anything more and Anthony Hopkins will have to start gumming his victims to death.

6/10/2002
Quick notes:
- Gemma Hayes is a babe
- Portishead are back
- Mr Lif is the shit (meaning 'good', to all you non-homies out there)

Job hunting is depressing. The other day some dudes came over to my flat to deliver some boxes for my sister's boyfriend (he's shipping stuff home). Had a chat with one of them and he was telling me how this girl he met was complaining that she had sent over a hundred job applications with no favourable response. Darn.

On the bright side, the results for my masters project came out earlier this week and I officially have an MA under my belt. Which is a worrying thing in itself, because unless I apply for another course (and I don't really want to cos it's overkill for the kind of work I'm looking for), that would mean that I have to start putting on my grey fur suit, sticking my pink tail on and attaching my whiskers in preparation for the race. Oh yeah, can't forget my Nike® paws.

Managed to catch Gummo on Channel 5 last night. If you're a cat lover, this film is not for you. You'll see why. Fun fact - Harmony Korine was 23 when he made Gummo. When I was 23 I made this.

I'll leave you with an interesting conversation I had with Yanni just a moment ago:

Loser Boy (me): halo. how was college on friday?

tsitou (Yanni): rubish. how r u?

Loser Boy: i'm okay. rubbish huh? hehe. what did u guys do on friday?

tsitou: nothing ... chris and then home

Loser Boy: i see. how boring.

tsitou: indeed

Loser Boy: did u learn about making tables?

tsitou: no its too early for that! we worked in teams and we presented our ideas ... some students learnt to click as well

Loser Boy: ooh! clicking! i'm still learning that on my own

tsitou: its difficult some times. u even have to move tha mouse

Loser Boy: wow, that is indeed difficult. well, what else do you expect from a MASTERS course?

tsitou: thats too advanced already

Loser Boy: you should complain. they should teach people how to turn on the computer first.